today

I’m getting a cat today. Pretty excited about that but also kinda nervous because they are a big responsibility and live a long time.

What pushed me over the edge to finally get one was the release of classic wow. I figured if I’m going to be home a lot, I may as well get one now while it’s the perfect time to care for it. It’ll also help distract me from my intense focus when I work on things, play, or feel bored. I think having a cat will help prevent me from getting depressed.

On the inverse, the only thing I’m stressing over is all the fur. I do have dreams of being a chef, or at least moonlighting as one, because I enjoy cooking. But that will be pretty much impossible if I get cat fur over all of my clothes every day. So these two dreams come at an exclusion that I can’t really resolve…. either cat or chef. So for now at least, while I’m not a chef, I choose cat. I’ll just deal with the future when it eventually arrives.

Also <Light’s Hope> is shutting down today. I will be there for the event at midnight. Kinda excited, because the end of this project means the start of something new (classic wow). The team did an amazing job resurrecting Vanilla and keeping it blizzlike, bringing back the memory. i really love these guys. I got to chat with them in discord a few times and they’re all really great people.

Other than that.. what else in new in my life? I resisted taking a holiday this August because, for one, I had a lot to do. But also the prices were so high and I don’t have anyone to go with. I considered just going to the beach and meeting people or to a festival and doing the same, but I resisted. I’m kinda tired of that life. I’m 28 now and don’t really feel the same spark when I travel now, as I did when I was a teenager. It’s all the same things. What matters to me now is who I go with, the company I have. I think it’s cliche, but the thing that gives life meaning the most, for me, is other people.

So I’ll probably holiday again this autumn or winter.

I’m not really sure what the next steps in my life are right now, I have a vague vision of the future but not a real plan to get there. So I’m living in the moment right now as I figure it out.

so excited for classic WoW

WoW was my escape from a hellscape childhood. I started at the end of Vanilla and by the time I hit, I believe level 30, the first expansion released and changed the entire world. I made some friends from the old world, who for example, was one very kind old British man who ran me through Blackrock Depths at level 70 and I was at-level. I remember him telling me stories about him and his guild running through it. He showed me all the secrets, like how you can jump into the lava at that one spot and if you are careful enough, and swim fast enough, you can avoid having to walk precariously across the giant chains in middle of the room. Running this dungeon with him was amazing. BRD is such a complicated dungeon, it’s easy to get lost if it’s your first, or hundredth time inside, and there’s so many little secrets you have to figure out. It’s overwhelming and i LOVE it. Watching him navigate this place, with such mastery and confidence, left this amazing impression on my mine. I couldn’t wait to get to level 70 and see what all the dungeons would be like. I remember discovering feralheart gear for the first time, the pre-raid first setpiece. It had all these cool bonuses if you collected all 7 of them. Matching armor. Even though it was all blue, I was SO excited to collect them.

Until I hit level 58 and went to outlands for the first time. Remember back in BC, this was before Cataclysm and the dragon destroyed all of Azeroth. Vanilla was still perfectly in tact. Naxx was still there. The whole experience was there, getting you hyped up for level 60. The music I was listening to was still referring to level 60 as max level (“I’ve got a level 60 bullet for your m—f— face“)… all this hype just to be decapitated by the new expansion. I was heartbroken.

the old lands were always empty after that, nothing “mattered” anymore. I felt like a fool if, for example, I collected Runecloth or asked someone to explain AQ to me.

Anyway. The game carried on and I slowly got used to the status quo. Each mini patch, which came out several weeks apart, slowly degenerated the game bit by bit. At the end of BC, it was destroyed by the island above silvermoon city (can’t remember the name of that place:/), only to contain the players for a month or two just to hold off until WotLK destroyed everything else. I mean you can argue that Cata destroyed the game both literally (fire dragon) and figuratively (this is when many people started leaving the game by the millions). But I disagree. Each new expansion destroyed absolutely everything that laid before it.

What the point of falling in love , when you know in a few years, it will be dead and gone?

How could I ever love a game like this.

In comes Elysium, some years ago I discovered, after a fit of exceptional frustration with retail, an emulation of the vanilla game. It had thousands of players.

Well anyway LONG STORY SHORT IT WAS AMAZING. I learned a big lesson that my memories are right, when you remember something is better, then it probably is. Other people can be like sheep, all blindly agreeing with each other that you have “greener on the other side of the fence” bias. But no, it was just as magical and amazing as I remembered it to be.

So yeah. Combine that with my recent assistance to private realms, following WoW channels on youtube and twitter, and finally buying a new powerful computer just to play it… yeah. I’m pretty excited.

Check out my new imac. On 5K-Ultra settings I get 63fps in crowded orgrimmar. On 5K-Medium it bumps to 95fps. And if I lower the resolution to 2560-1440 then my framerate goes over 200. NOT BAD. Definitely not bad for such a small and beautiful machine. I love macs.

Like my apartment is very small and I don’t have space to have a big clunky tower and the unsightly cables all over the place. But the imac is completely wireless. Just one power cable. I’m really happy with this purchase.

cool new apartment

I don’t think I’ve bragged about it here yet….

but yeah, after all this long search and waiting, I finally moved into my cool new apartment last month! It’s in a superb location, dead center of Paris and close to many famous places. When I step onto the street, I can turn and see Notre Dame 😀

Or should i say, what’s left of it :’/

My new apartment is expensive, of course, given the nature of this city… but it’s also sooooo small. It’s arguably two rooms. One tiny bedroom on the 7th floor, the size of an attic, and one studio room with a kitchen and lounge area on the 6th. Despite the size, the designer did very well with storage and organization. There is sneaky storage all about. Large windows that let in a lot of sunlight. All in all, it’s very nice and super cozy for one person.