Now I’m up and running, settled in my new apartment, and feeling much better about my life than I was last winter, my new priority is making friends, and making really good ones.
My whole life I have been so independent and traveled a lot, so I have lost the luxury of making close friends. I want to undo this damage and bring back a healthy social life. Paris is definitely my home now and I’m never (almost never) leaving. So with that assumption, I only have forward to move:)
The biggest challenges to making friends, for me, is keeping my mouth shut. Sometimes I like to say everything that’s on my mind, even if it’s offensive. Honestly I can be a bit insensitive when it comes to topics of race and sex. Not in a spirit of hate, but just pointing out facts about reality. A lot of people get offended by that sort of stuff, especially in a progressive country. So I really have to either keep my mouth shut, or learn to pretend that women are on the same level as men….l ol
Well if that’s my biggest problem, then I am not too concerned.
I’ve learned this year that emotions are very important. Previously, I used to believe that emotions are just a burden — like something to be ignored and that you should always allow your willpower to take charge unconditionally. Even in other people, to me, it never mattered at all how they felt, only what they did. Sort of like an ‘ends justify the means’ attitude to human emotions.
But I’m not like that anymore. Now I really value my own feelings and especially that of others. It’s changed how I see the world and I’ve learned that emotions are real. When they are felt, they exist. They are indeed tangible, even if I can’t hold an emotion in my hand. Even if it really just is chemicals swimming in the blood in your brain— it’s still real. And those ‘chemical’s are something to be cherished and listened to.
This is still a developing thought for me. I’ll share more in the coming months.
With my cool new awesome apartment signed, paid, and ready to move in on the 6th of July, and no major obligations in my job… I realized I have a two-week window to do whatever I want.
So I went to Estonia:)
I’ve been really wanting to hike this country for over a year now. Somehow I always anticipated that I would get around to it in autumn. But why wait? I booked this trip less than 3 hours after I got the idea. Mega impulse purchase :DDDDDDD
Anyway I’m here now. I’m in Tallinn and have been hanging with my friends. It’s not my first time here, so, of course I have to say hello to them. But tomorrow I will begin my hike and hopefully I will post cool pictures and tell you all about it.
Otherwise things in my life are looking good. Things keep getting better and better. I’m happy. Still not where I want to be, emotionally-speaking, yet… but I now at least have full confidence in myself and can see the path in front of me.
I’ve gotten the best help, for my emotional struggles, from the strangest of places…. Jil on instagram. You should follow her. She’s good for your soul.
But you can’t marry her. If you try, I’ll kill you.
This guide is directed at users running World of Warcraft version 1.12.1 on Windows 7.
In some circumstances, “rundll32.exe” will use 100 percent of a CPU core. This is due to a fault in Microsoft’s GameUX. You will need to disable gameUX to fix this. This can be done by editing the registry.
Create a text file containing the following:
Windows Registry Editor Version 5.00
Then rename this file from *.txt to *.reg.
Run the .reg file.
Now you can play WoW
If you ever want to undo these changes, then simply repeat the above steps with:
Windows Registry Editor Version 5.00